My knees are hurting again *headdesk*

This all stems from my kung fu, trying to achieve a proper body structure... the problem is that for me to do that, I have to tense up, and when I do that, when I turn it puts strain on my knees, namely (from what Chris has told me and what I've read) the ACL and I tend to suspect also maybe the cartlidge in the joint.

I went through this before and backed right off on my training, and it's taken a good long while to build up the confidence to really put myself in "proper" structure again... and now my fucking knees are starting to hurt again.

If this keeps up, I'm going to need to back off my kung fu. I can't keep doing this if it's going to fuck my ACL's up, I just can't. Chris says it's a matter of getting myself in structure and being relaxed while I'm in it, and I fully agree, but the general attitude is that the only way to get relaxed in it is to spend time in it... all very well if you don't mind destroying your knees in the process. Taking the attitude of "push through it in the hope that you attain a good structure before damaging your knees" (not that I've been told that but really that's what it boils down to) is a risky solution at best.

All I can think of is that I start focusing less on my kung fu and more on specific stretches, to get the muscles that need to be relaxed stretched.

Maybe I should start focusing on tai chi again *shrugs* I haven't been doing much lately because I haven't been getting trained in it, but it's one way of working my structure without the sharp strains of kung fu.

I think I need to corner Chris on Wednesday when it'll most likely be another one-on-one training session and work out what to do with this *sighs*

Shit.

Tags: martial arts
Temperability: sore, frustrated

Had a really good training session tonight :) For the first time since starting Anthony's system, Chris commented tonight that my form was really starting to come together.

This has been sorely needed - over the past few weeks I'd been a bit frustrated with not "getting it". Especially after last Wednesday, when he'd completely torn my form apart and told me what I was doing with just about every single movement in the entire form. I mean sure, the method works (with me, anyway) but I ended up not feeling so great afterwards, because I'd just felt he was telling me I needed to do things that I simply didn't know how to do.

But yes, tonight I could tell he was really looking for things to comment on, but not finding any (for someone at my level - I make no claim of perfection) so I was pretty happy about that :) It's nice to get a confidence boost every now and then :)

Tags: martial arts
Temperability: accomplished

I've been trying to shift this post so it's not already five hundred pages back in everyone's friends' pages but it didn't work, so here's the pic, and if you want the orignal dialogue for it, go here:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/zdallin/89645.html

Tags: martial arts
Temperability: stoopid computer

First night back at training since I got home from NY. My arm feels like it's been de-boned right now.

Ow.

Tags: martial arts
Temperability: ow